HE is Enough

     Many people do not realize that I struggle with depression.  That there are areas of my life that come back to haunt me and that I worry about what the future holds..  I read and study my Bible and journal about what I go through during many periods in my life.  Today, I saw a post by my Pastor who posted a song on Facebook.  It was a song that he wrote.  Not to encourage someone else but a song he wrote for himself to remind himself that God is in control and No weapon formed against him would prosper.
     It made me stop and reflect on all the things that I have written about.  Poems and words that the Lord has given me over the years to encourage me.  I went through this blog and read a few excerpts.  I found myself encouraged.  Sometimes, I just have to stop and recall that if He brought me through tough times in the past, He will most certainly bring me through this time.
     Two years ago in my journal I wrote this:

Lord, you are there!

You are here!

I feel You

I feel your presence

I feel your peace

I am not falling apart

I am strong in Your mighty power

Not me

But YOU!

Before I wept as though my heart would break

Before I hung on to myself, my way of fixing things, my way of loving people

Thinking I could fix the troubles around me

Thinking I could heal those hurting around me

But I couldn't

But I cannot

I stepped away

I came back to it and tried again

I cannot mend

Only YOU can!

I cannot heal

Only YOU can!

I am yours LORD

I am part of the vine- the branch - attached to YOU!

I continually go back to giving YOU

care of this precious family YOU have given me

They are in YOUR HANDS!

     Have I grown since I wrote these words or am I still trying to pick up the broken pieces and fix them myself?  I really must take the wisdom and words You have so faithfully given me and apply them continuously to now!

Today, out come these words:

I am fickle

unsteady

unsure

unable

unbelieving at times

unwilling

unfaithful

under pressure

LORD

YOU ARE THERE

YOU ARE HERE

YOU WERE THEN

YOU ARE NOW

YOU ARE BEFORE

YOU ARE AFTER

YOU ARE STEADY

YOU ARE CONSTANT

YOU ARE!

and now my prayer is

But you God!

Come in

Fill me

Heal me

Hold me

Contain me

Comfort me

Draw me in

Hold me close

FOR YOU ARE

ENOUGH