Check out Wells Wheels on ETSY

https://www.etsy.com/your/shops/me/dashboard?ref=mcpa

Thursday, January 1, 2026

Merry Christmas 2025

 This year's Christmas party at Joe and Jen's was fun, but we definitely felt the absence of our dear brother Mike.  His humor, gentleness, genuine interest in everyone, and loving personality have always been a mainstay in our family, and it wasn't the same without him. But I know he would want us to carry on our traditions.  The loss is deeply felt by all of us. So, for you, dearest Mikey, I dedicate this to your memory. Jen gathered us in the kitchen, and we had a moment to remember the ones we have lost in the last few years.  Richard, Bunny, Daddy, Mumma, Holly, and Mike, you are in our hearts forever!





                                                  

Annie and Julie

Ann, Julie, and Sue

Janet, Ann, Julie, George,S SUE, and Jen

Layne in her elf costume

Joe is enjoying his comfy spot.

Emily


Audrey and Janet
J and Ray

Layne and Audrey

Hello Al

Addy and Josh

So good to laugh with my sisters!

Travis and Erin

Travis, Erin and Olivia pre Yankee Swap Time

The Wellsys
getting ready for the fierce competition of the Swap!




Gary, Dan and Sue

Brittany, Al, Josh, Addy and Ryan

Katie, Julio, Audrey and Leah
Katie proudly displays her "prize."

Sammi and Katie

Will Julie's gift be a flip or a flop?

Rachael is ever so festive!
Hard work opening those gifts!  Ooh, new flannel robes!!

Beautiful smiles!

Who will go home with what Christmas present?


Sammi wrapped a bunch of prizes in two rolls of Saran Wrap. We rolled the dice to get a certain number,  and proceeded to unwrap the prizes with one oven mitt-clad hand and one free hand until the desired number was thrown, and then the ball went to the next person.
Get it, Brendan!

So blessed to be a part of this Fantabulous FitzSimmons family. We truly do our best to get together as often as possible, and this is always a highlight of the year.



 

Here is Uncle Mike last year, being the best uncle to August and Abigail!




"In my Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.' John 14: 2-3 

 My heart knows this and we will see you again one day my sweet brother!

Thursday, February 23, 2023

Trying to find Peace



 


 Lord, time of quiet with You is scarce 

My brain is scattered 

My cup is bare

I fill the day meeting needs

Working

Chasing

Not on my knees

Since the loss of Holly girl

My brain is in a constant swirl

We've left our house

We've moved 

          We've changed

The train keeps roaring

Our world rearranged

Lord, we are struggling 

Is this your will?

To lose it all

To swallow this pill?

It seems like it is all a loss

We are sad and weary of 

Carrying this cross

Baby girls are in Your hands 

We are trying to trust 

Whatever your plan

I cry out to You with poetry

These words are me on my knees

Please hear my prayer for these girls

Hold them tight in this cold, dark world

Keep them safe

Touch their lives with Your grace

Surround them with angels

Don't take them away

But Your will, not mine

Is the lesson here

Every month

Every hour

I'm learning this year

YOU are Sovereign

Jesus my King

There is nothing that happens without

YOUR KNOWING

     My heart is heavy as I continue to mourn the loss of my daughter Holly.  The shock was so great at first 

that I could't even cry.   I longed for the tears that would not fall. I could not comprehend that she was 

gone.  I lay awake for hours, night after night in our rv, looking out at the stars, remembering every single 

detail of the weeks leading up to her passing. What could I have done differently? How could I have 

helped her better? Why didn't she ask for help? There are no answers and I know it is not my fault.  It does 

not make it any easier. The repercussions of her decisions are so far reaching to us who are left behind. 

But I know she did the best she could.   I know that she tried so hard to give her family the best side of her

 and hid her addictions and her pain.  Showing up only when she was feeling her best. For that I love her

 and am proud of her. 

     This is the first thing I've written since she has left this life.  I have so much I want to share about my 

girl Holly.  So many lessons I have learned in the raising of her.  I want to help those who are struggling 

with the same things and help families who are coping with the loss of loved ones to addictions.  Her life 

meant so much and as I heal I will begin to write about her story.  I have written thing about Holly in the

 past but I never shared them because I always thought it was her story to tell.  But soon I will tell it for 

her.

     My faith in the Lord Jesus is what has carried me through this. It is supernatural grace.  Grace defined 

biblically is "the free and unmerited favor or beneficence of God." That is the only way I can explain how

 I keep putting one foot in front of the other.  "The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger,

abounding in love. And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have 

suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."  This is what He 

is doing in my life despite one loss after another.  

     One of my favorite verses is "You will experience God's peace which is far more wonderful than the 

human mind can understand.  His peace will keep your hearts and your minds at rest as you trust in Christ 

Jesus." Phillipians 4:7.   I do trust and I still have my faith.  The tears finally came and for that I am 

grateful. I am able to pour out my heart to God and trust He has a plan even in this.  Easy? No! It's a 

whole lot of Why God? and questioning everything.  I am thankful for my husband, my family and my 

friends at church who have walked with me in my grief. They have been there for me and prayed for me 

and listened to my confusion.

     This is not my usual mode of blogging.  Kind of a beginning of writing to process all the events of the 

last few months.  Trying to start somewhere.  If you have read this far, thank you.  Be blessed. Praying

God will give me the words to help and encourage others.


Tuesday, January 4, 2022

Gabriella: Welcome to the Family

    


  Welcome to the world little Miss Gabriella! You are so loved. From the time I 

knew that your Mama Holly was carrying you in her womb I have been praying for 

your health and wholeness. It was a rocky time for your Mama she she discovered 

that you were in her belly but that is her story to tell. Your mama is a very good 

writer and I pray that someday she will be able to share her stories.

     In October, your Mama had an ultrasound which showed that you were 

measuring very small compared to other babies at this gestational age. I wrote in 

my journal: "Lord God, this baby, he or she (because we didn't know if you were a 

boy or a girl yet) is measuring very tiny. I pray that you would touch him or her 

and breathe health and healing and strength and vitality into his/her being so that 

she will grow up to be strong and to love you Lord!" Jeremiah 30:17 says. "But I 

will restore you to health and heal your wounds, declares the Lord." I read this 

verse and claimed it for you little one!

     Your Papa and I spent the summer in Vermont with your Mama and your sister, 

August, waiting excitedly as we watched your Mom's belly grow and felt your 

movement in her belly. I looked forward to your due date, November 30th when 

we would finally get to meet you!

     On October 13th, in my journal, I wrote, "Please strengthen Hollly's baby and 

help her to put on weight and be healthy." I know how anxious your Mom was 

about your health. I was in North Carolina and she was in Vermont and I wished I 

could have been closer so that I could encourage and comfort her. I knew that I 

wanted to be there when you were born so I made arrangements to arrive in 

Vermont on November 8th. Your due date was November 30th so I was hopeful to 

spend some time with Holly and August and be available when your Mom went 

into labor.

     But the week before I was due to arrive in Vermont, your Mom started 

experiencing high blood pressure and the doctor continued to be concerned about 

you low birth weight. He wanted to admit your Mom to the hospital and induce 

labor a few weeks early to avoid any more complications. She was able to hold the 

doctor off for the weekend of November 6th. On Monday, November 8th he 

insisted that your Mama be admitted to NMC for bed rest. He would induce labor 

the following morning, Tuesday, November 9th.

       I got there in time to watch your sister but because of COVID restrictions, I 

was not allowed to visit Holly in the hospital.  I took August for a walk in the

 stroller. We walked around the hospital and your Mama waved at us from her 

bedroom window.  That's as close as we could get. 


     August and I spent a lot of time together in the next few weeks while you were 

in the hospital.

August and I like taking snapchat pictures.

One day August fell asleep in her stroller during

our walk so I carried her in the house.

Sweet dreams August!


Playing with cousin Layne.



Wearing Mima's glasses.


Silly girls!





We had fun at the pet store seeing the fish and turtles!



She got a hold of my white out and painted her fingernails.



Wearing Mima's sweater.




     Your mama labored all day on Tuesday but you took your time coming. Finally,

 after an epidural which only numbed half of your Mama's body, you were born at 

7:06 pm at Northwestern Medical Center in St Albans.




You are so sweet little one!







     Mama got to hold you briefly but then they whisked you out of the room 

because you were having breathing difficulties. I don't know all the details but I 

do know your condition was serious enough for them to transport you by 

ambulance to the UVM Medical Center where you could get specialized care in the 

Pediatric Intensive Care Unit.

     Meanwhile, your Mima, (that's me), had been waiting eagerly to hear if you 

had been born yet. I called your Mom using Face time around 8 pm. I looked at 

her face and said, "How are you doing? Still laboring?" She looked stunned and 

said, " I just had the baby!" Yay!  I was so excited I almost forgot to ask if you 

were a boy or a girl!  What is it? I finally asked. "It's a girl!" she said.  We were 

thrilled and happy but I knew how worried your Mama was because the doctors 

had taken you out of the room so quickly. I was worried too.

     It was a very difficult time. We were hoping, praying and wondering if you 

were going to be ok. Your Mom was in one hospital and you were in another one a 

half hour away. Because of COVID restrictions, only your Mama and Daddy were 

able to visit you in NICU! You had to be intubated and fed through a tube. The 

doctors sedated you to allow you to be still so that the hole in your lung could 

heal. Mommy couldn't even hold you because you were so fragile. You only 

weighed 4 pounds, 15 ounces but you were here at last! You had the most 

beautiful head of black hair I have ever seen! Despite all the problems, I knew you 

were getting the best care possible and I was trusting that God would heal you 

completely.


One day they finally took your oxygen out.

 Only one tube left, your feeding tube!

You look like you're smiling in your sleep.


     For two weeks, your Mama and Daddy went back and forth to the hospital so 

they could spend time with you while you got better. Finally, the doctors took the 

oxygen off of you and you were breathing all by yourself. Without all the tube and

 oxygen mask on you, we were finally able to see your beautiful face! 




You started to drink your bottles and nurse until finally you were well enough to 

come home. On Thanksgiving day, November 25th, 17 days after you were born, 

Mama and Daddy dressed you up pretty and brought you home.

Time to leave the hospital at last!



You are so pretty!


     Then they brought you to meet your sister and your Auntie Audrey and your 

Mima (me). What a celebration!

We finally got to see you in person!



August meeting her sissy!!



Meeting your Auntie Audrey!



I was so happy to finally get to hold you!








     The verse for you I find today is : "The eternal God is your refuge, and 

underneath are the everlasting arms." Deuteronomy 33:27. 


 May God 

  carry you in His arms all the

 days of your life!

I love you sweet Gabriella!

Your first Christmas!~







Merry Christmas 2025

 This year's Christmas party at Joe and Jen's was fun, but we definitely felt the absence of our dear brother Mike.  His humor, gent...